Trying Change

Hello Everyone

Today I am doing something a little different and it is going to mark the start of a new series on this blog and also a new chapter in my life. I don’t talk about my life all that much on here and have kept this blog mostly just for me to talk about books and a few of the other things I love, but that is changing. Don’t worry. I am still going to be posting my usual bookish content on Tuesdays and Fridays, but this is going to be an extra series that will go up every Sunday.

This is a series that was inspired by Dottie James on YouTube. She created her trying change video earlier this year and I loved it. Since then I have been trying to change my own life just like she is doing, but I have been struggling because I wasn’t really committed, so I thought writing about it on here will mean that I have to do it because once I hit publish on this post people will be expecting the next update and I can’t let them down. I should probably back up and tell you all what exactly I am trying to change though, so bare with me:

Earlier this year I was diagnosed as autistic as well as with depression and anxiety. I have been suffering from the latter 2 for a while, but it took an awful long time to get me seen, so I have been fending for myself for quite a while. I am now on some medication and I am hoping that that will help, but it is a little early to tell yet. I have come to realise though that the medication isn’t all I need. If I want to get better (and I really do) I am going to have to try. I need to do the things I don’t want to do. I need to look after myself and I need to want it. The autism isn’t so much of a problem, but it is just getting used to it that is difficult. Being labelled isn’t easy and I have already faced some discrimination only mere months after my diagnosis and I am sure I will face more challenges from it in the future, but I’ll save all of that for another post.

Now that you know what this is about I am going to explain how this is going to work: As Dottie said in her video, I am going to try 100% at everything I do. If there is a better way I can do something, then I have to do it that way. My goal is not to do everything, but to TRY at EVERYTHING. I am going to keep you updated on the things that have happened each week in a post like this on Sunday evenings. I will tell you what I achieved, what I didn’t achieve, how I have been feeling, the things that are happening and what I am doing to get better.

The things I want to do next week:

• Write – write a lot of blog posts, journal entries and whatever else I feel like writing
• Read everyday
• Go to Nottingham with my family for the day (this will be hard)
• Leave the house on two other occasions

The things I want to do this month:

• Write, Write, Write
• Plan my book (a post will be coming about this sometime in the next few months)
• Work on my website
• Research methods of selling my photographs and artwork
• Read – a lot
• Text my friends
• Do a photoshoot with my friends
• Save money
• Go to France (this will be very, very difficult)

The things I want to do within the next 5 years:

• Write a book
• Sell my photographs/art
• Get a job
• Make new friends
• Go to college
• Get Better

These are the things I am going to try 100% at in the next week, month or years and I am hoping that documenting this journey on here will hold me accountable for what I have just promised. So yeah. I don’t know how this is going to go, but we’ll just have to wait and see.

I’ll see you all next week

Over and Out